So the last time I wrote about wanting to lose weight and get healthy was not very long before Scarlett went to the hospital. I was doing really good working out everyday and eating fairly well. I continued to eat pretty good although I'm sure i could always do better. Unfortunately with going to the hospital, mike being home and the stress of everything I didn't go to the gym for about a month. I started working out again and hope to get back on track.
For any of you that have had a loss you will probably know how i feel about losing weight. I know i need to do it and that the more i lose the better my chances of getting pregnant are. But the hard part is that I know once i get pregnant i will just gain whatever i lose back and probably plus some. When i was pregnant with Zoey i gained 24 pounds in 22 weeks. I can only imagine what i would have gained if she was full term. I also worry because once i get pregnant i cant really work out as much. The doctor said i can go for light walks but not full workouts and once i get further in the pregnancy i shouldn't do alot at all. I feel like i will put so much work and stress into losing weight and then just have to do it all over again in a year. I just don't know how to keep motivated and not get discouraged.
I watch many of the reality shows and especially ones about weight loss. I wish i could have someone come to my house everyday and make me workout and remind me to eat healthy. I like exercise and I enjoy healthy food so all i need is someone to get me going everyday. Mike tries to help me but it's hard when he is my kick in the butt because often I either feel like he is nagging me or take his help the wrong way. He has been very patient with me and I love him for it. I am lucky to have his support in everything i decide to do.